Hello Hello. Happy Monday!! I hope you had a great weekend and are off to a good start to your week. My weekend wasn’t that great to be honest. Not that I had any grand plans but I just felt blah + off. I’m not sure what it was that caused me to feel that way. Maybe it was because on Saturday is was two years since my Grandpa went to Heaven. Maybe it was because my family [8 people total] were going to get together and celebrate Grandpa but because of Covid we decided it was safer to not gather. Maybe it was because of all the constant worrying + being so damn careful about EVERYTHING for the past 9 months. Maybe I just needed a break from everything.
I felt burnt out + just exhausted in every way. It was a busy couple of weeks with errands + doctor appointments for my Grandma. And I did work hard + for long hours every day for the past 3 weeks on Sparkle but I had fun doing that ya know? I even had this weeks post schedule all done so it wasn’t like I had to figure out what to write about. I just couldn’t bring myself to work on said posts. To be honest I couldn’t bring myself to do much of anything.
I did laundry and whatever my grandma needed me to do and went to the food store with my Daddee. In between all that I took naps, watched movies + scrolled IG. I thought about working on Sparkle all the time, but every time I went to start I just couldn’t. So I didn’t. I was torn about about it. On one hand I felt relief that I could just zone out + not worry about anything ya know? But then on the other hand I felt guilty that I wasn’t working on building up Sparkle that has been my dream for 5 years.
Once I decided that it was okay that Monday’s post could either go up late or not at all, it was like a weight had been lifted. I felt relieved. I listened to my body and just rested- my mind + body. Once I did that I felt better and motivated, thats when I decided to write this post instead of the on the I had planned to write.
Not going to lie, I’m not feeling back to normal but I am feeling much better. Can’t promise it will last since its 1:06am EST as I’m writing this and I’m not finished yet + still need to find an image to go along with it. But it’s a start right? [Edit: I woke up energized + ready to tackle the day. I cleaned the house + and now working on this post. So this is proof that taking a break + resting works!]
All this to say, it’s okay to rest + take a time out, even during the busy holiday season. Listen to your body because it won’t steer you wrong. When you take a break, you’re doing yourself + those around a service because you’re no good to anyone, yourself included when you’re exhausted + unmotivated to do anything ya know?
I don’t know why or where the ‘theory’ that the busier you are the better you are came from but I’m here to tell you its a lie. Yes there are times when you can’t help it but we aren’t machines. We weren’t made to keep going and never rest. We were made to rest + take breaks. Thats what Sunday’s are for right? So next time you want to take a break + rest, do it!! You’ll feel so much better and afterwards you’ll be even more productive so its a win-win really.
Thank you so much for being here! It means so much!
Always Sparkle and Shine Bright…